Tuesday, 23 October 2018

Full moon

People who are drawn together don't have the protection of the laws of gravity to keep them apart.
The consequences don't matter when we're drawn to one another.
All that matters is the power of that touch.
Skin to skin.
_
_
_
But there are always consequences.
Eventually, the moon sets and the sun rises, and whatever happened in the magic of that moonlight, has to face the hard truth of the light of day.

Monday, 22 October 2018

Good night

https://youtu.be/fPgs3qq9CGs

断联21天

这个被你的语音信息叫起的早晨
心情矛盾

我从刚刚一直到现在都在尝试把"起身未啊"download 或save下来。一直一直试,你懂的我对电子功能真的不行😂。

我没有成功。所以这次我没有清洗你的聊天记录。以前很多很多肉肉麻麻,甜甜蜜蜜,流流氓氓,搞搞笑笑的信息,都没有想过存下来。今天怎么了。就一个普通的早安信息让我心乱了。也许失去了才知道珍贵吧。

真的被你说中了,如果你要找我,一定能找到。
找到了,又能怎样呢?

你还没send来,我就听了。也想起你😍
https://youtu.be/_rCombIOGtc
其实我从开始就知道没有结局,就是打算陪你疯一回的。
时光倒退,我还会疯这一回。
那种融在血液里的心动冲动激动,人生没白活。
只是,真的够了。
#隐隐阴阴的痛也是会死人的
#还不可以做你的普通朋友
感恩爱你爱我

Thursday, 18 October 2018

Tuesday, 16 October 2018

I am no victim. #somethingreturned

My friend just returned me the old book. When you want to escape from sth, the universe never cease to remind you of it. That's how I feel now.

The first read, I was so angry with Rachel. How could she? How dare she? I played victim as I tasted the bitter of betrayal.

The second read, I felt so touched for Dex and Rachel. I was touched by their courage and their happy ending. I wish every love could be cherished as I tasted the bitter-sweet of a scandal. Love should only be love, nothing more or less. To love and be loved is the only bonding instead of responsibility. However, we are no Dex and Rachel.

Life surprised me with your love. I thought things should be right or wrong, black or white. You're the all tones of grey. And, I'm no white, at least not as white as I thought I was.

I remembered when I first said NO, and you overruled the decision in hours. I struggled in our chemistry. I remembered I even texted my ex after our first fight just to ask him if any possibility you would leave her for me. How silly! I know! I just need some courage to carry on. I need some success cases to keep me believe there is true love in affair and Dex and Rachel is not novelty.

After our N-times break up, I finally decided to try someone else... Keep keep keep trying...

And I kept kept kept running back to you. The forces were so strong that I couldn't help myself. That's why I stop befriend you. Darling, I would never get over you when you're always there for me. And I can't do that anymore, the mistress. I fed up with all the nights where my boyfriend was only on the mobile. I had enough of happy moments or pictures where you're only behind the scene. I'm not sorry for wanting more and loving myself.

I'm sorry for loving you.

I watched Scandal again when I miss you.
FYI, all the scandals are similar.

https://youtu.be/KQwwiIZ-w1I

https://youtu.be/iJ3UBneiB9I

https://youtu.be/EtUNXaiLkDw

#stillnotoveryou  #butsoon #goingtobuynewphonenextmonthformybirthday #throwingawaythephoneyouboughtformybirthday
#cleancutthistime
#Iamdetermined
#thememorieslasting

Sunday, 14 October 2018

我的你


That's the best. I know. I really feel it.


How if...


How if he's taken and unavailable?

Friday, 12 October 2018

笑一笑

泻肚子的厨师 vs 半价的肉饼

Saturday, 6 October 2018

10.06

https://youtu.be/XwpgYOiJ06Y

No more FB memories

#每首歌代表一个我们秘密的小确幸
#好像把我们的故事再走一遭
#明天不看memories了
#你呢

Friday, 5 October 2018

10.05


https://youtu.be/dVruLwaFvrQ

FB memories, heaven or hell


谁发明的FB memories













#每一天是情人节
#每一天是纪念日
 #太狂
#现在每一天看memories
 #太😩

Thursday, 4 October 2018

断联第四天

别垄断 我想你的夜晚
别揭穿 我包裹的不堪
别交代 我爱你的病态
多草率 除了你都不爱

https://youtu.be/BPu_qqgw7PM

Wednesday, 3 October 2018

Awake jor

https://youtu.be/WifuIg4PhHw

Skip pilates today

Stay back at school die die want to vomit out the paper. Finally I gao dim my exam paper. All set.

Heard video call ringing just now, of course it wasn't you. No problem. I'm so fine. The YouTube playlist just filled Up the void you left.

Bad headache day. Guess my period coming tonight or tomorrow.

I sleep now.

https://youtu.be/t3jr2z-IJOI

Tuesday, 2 October 2018

Mon cheri

Too short yet too long
Too shallow yet too deep
Too wrong yet too right
Too dirty yet too clean
Too ugly yet too beautiful
Too dark yet too bright
Too fake yet too sincere
Too little yet too much
Too hurt yet too love

https://youtu.be/fQWhenQgXo8

Gone too soon yet last forever

#ihaventsetmyexampaper
#ijustdontwanttomove
#lyingheremissingyou
#ddd
#yourverylousypasswordoftexting
#darlingdarlingdarling
#yourverysimpleyetcomplicatedhead
#isyourcharm


双曲循环

https://youtu.be/URZLGMVjYo8

https://youtu.be/39ci0jsMxHA


Monday, 1 October 2018

Hello October!

To-do list
- set exam paper for October (am sorry for the delay)
- find the winter clothes for my sister
- clean my room (wipe off the love traces) 
- visit Pui Zhee in KL

Too many things to do, so limited time. Gonna burn the mid night oil jor. 

💪💪💪
Gonna complete all, no excuses, keep going! 

P. S. : The best way to lose weight is "sat luin" :p

#nobluffyou

#idonth

#ieatandsleepasusual





Before Sep 2014 || 48kg
2015 || 50kg (my target) 😉
2016 || 52kg
2017 || 54kg (his target) 🙄
Before Sep 2018 || 54kg 😩
2018.10.01 || 51.4kg 
Losing the weight of the sugar.

#youdontlosetheweightiputontoyou
#iwillgetmadofthat
#78 #nolessthanthat😇
#doublestandards #sowhat



Sunday, 30 September 2018

The Love of My Life

Darling, 我挣扎很久要把电话号码换掉了。
我拿了个新号码两个星期,却不舍得断了你的联系。
两张sim 卡,还是可以看到你的miss call,暗暗高兴着。
不过,这是最后一天了。
今天必须和你说再见了。
Darling, 我爱你,很爱很爱你。
你懂的。

纠纠缠缠的,拖拖拉拉的,背着光的我拼了命的爱你。尽管你尽力护我周全;就算我努力自我调节,我們就是免不了彼此痛爱着。

你让我看见我原来可以那么敢。勇气不是不害怕,而是明明怕到要死,还是横冲直撞要和你闯走一段。
只是,我好像透支了我的勇气,也许年纪大了点吧,不能再任性只爱你不自爱了。

爱一个不可能的人,伤他一寸,自己痛七分,这样深爱着,这样的残忍,我们何苦呢?!

谢谢你的这个四年,足矣。
我真的爱你,深深的,痛痛的,爱你。

和你走过的这一段,会是我一辈子最珍藏的回忆。
感恩有你。

想在家陪你看无聊综艺,不是房,你懂吗?
https://youtu.be/sE6S2hrc4hQ
怕你看见我丑陋贪心的脸,先走了。
#你只要记住我爱你的心就好

September 2014 - September 2018

Friday, 28 September 2018

爱若让人患上记忆


https://youtu.be/shYAQ4nRl7g

只因此生此景 爱你

#耳东木化十
# linda

Tuesday, 25 September 2018

FB memory, heaven or hell?

#人们把迟来的爱锁在密码里
#你像一封情书感觉很初级
#怕脱口而出是你的姓名

Saturday, 22 September 2018

He's no you








What did you do to me?
What did I do to myself?
What's wrong loving you?

Wednesday, 19 September 2018

令达


https://youtu.be/-eIDk36gN8E

巧的事

当我特地想要换掉一些你的东西。
选啊选啊
很高兴买到很满意的宝贝
回头一看
跟原本的竟是如此神似
只是换了个牌子
便宜了点
#我确实喜欢
#精挑细选
#不是偶然巧合

Sunday, 2 September 2018

是不是这样的夜晚

https://youtu.be/hjXrL7CuAvc

回到家了。
今天和弟妹们有个尽兴夜晚。

没有你
也可以很快乐

听到维权唱"缺口"
想起在你怀里和你一起哼唱的时候
#你就是你
#我才能是我
#彼此都是彼此的缺口
#连说慌都很透明

#每一句就是我们
#我们是如此不同
#却又如此契和
#一凹一凸

我记得你说我们像magnet
不同极
就是想靠近

我一直觉得我是很会表达情绪的人
在你说出magnet 的时候,我觉得我输了
你真的可以感觉我的感觉

#clicked
#只有你
#想你
#darling 我想你
#我想把你的名字set 成darling
#而不是Linda

#我想要的我要不到我不敢要
#为什么迟到
#还是爱你

#要好好的
#我們要幸福

Tuesday, 28 August 2018

Feel so right to do the one wrong thing

在结束和你六十多分钟的通话后,我的朋友弱弱的说了一句“匯,今生无憾了”

我知道。
只是有时会贪心多想。
有时会内疚胆怯。

她说,她没有一个秒懂她的人;没有一个一秒可以把雨天转晴的人;没有一个像你和我一样的人。我要觉得无憾了,因为不容易会有第二个这样的人出现。你让我更认识我自己,成为了现在这个我。哈哈!她告诉我,如果坚持找到这样click的男主角,很难!

我知道。
但是我会的。
毕竟你的出现本来就是意想之外的惊喜,我相信这样的惊喜还会有的。

P.S.她很会安慰人。一句‘别把他当成一个错,就当做是缺陷美吧’ 我差点儿没痛哭流涕。
缺陷在于不能拥有,美在一路的相知相守与祝福。

今天,你用“谢谢有你”结束通话。
今生,我用“谢谢有你”保存童话。

Sunday, 26 August 2018

Monday, 20 August 2018

只是忙追剧

https://youtu.be/oPC-UC-hu80

这个假期不做什么,就在追剧。

#这词写得太绝了
#如果人生如戏
#我宁愿我是你的皇上
#不要是傅恒
#陪在你身边就是最好的幸福

#如果这一生我们是爱了好久的朋友
#下辈子换一生相爱相伴
#你安排一下好吧
#说定了

Friday, 17 August 2018

Sunday, 12 August 2018

《割心》

不想睡

https://youtu.be/Uv7Ekcc15Fg

#linda
#爱上你
#我容易吗
#最无能为力的事
#无可救药爱上你
#好想还是小孩
#哭闹过后就能换来想要的
#可惜我們长大了
#不是所有的想要都能拥有
#除了你
#我谁都不想要
#怎么办
#我后悔了
#不该任性试爱的
#我后悔放任自己去爱你
#我后悔故作洒脱放弃你
#我后悔所有一切跟你有关的事
#你不该是我过不去的坑
#我们那么爱
#说好的戒毒后
#必须各自幸福的
#怎么还是想听你叨叨念念darling这darling那
#我活该
#明知故犯

Darling, 我好像会爱你很久很久。

#自私的希望
#你能在心里也爱我久久

#人与人之间的出场顺序太重要了


Saturday, 14 July 2018

一觉起来

昨晚回家也是一个深夜
一样黑的街
一样静的夜
没有你的护航
不一样的心情

总是在这样的深夜
特别想你
尤其收音机播着
一首首
都是你
所以又不自觉地兜了两个圈

https://youtu.be/XmH7QEOP40w

嘿,你听了吗?
老薛的了表心意
不错听
#他的词
#总是能让我们对号入座
#不会告诉你你的一闪一闪亮晶晶唱得😂
#只是我更喜欢你唱

Monday, 2 July 2018

一个四年了

France vs Argentina

#一餐饭
#FRA 赢我请
#ARG赢你请
#吃什么好呢
#重要吗
#都开心都开心
_
#记得上一届你也是ARG
#输了给我的GER
#换了对手
#你还是输了
_
_
_
#真心心疼Messi
#一代的青春再见了
_
#什么时侯开始一餐饭都需要理由
#吃一顿算一顿
_
https://youtu.be/Q1Ll9v_Pj6k

Tuesday, 5 June 2018

Calls answered

说好的戒毒呢
这个戒法,几时才是个头啊😂

#多了个闺蜜
#懂你懂我
#我们这样就够了
#谁说这不是爱呢

https://youtu.be/7MxHMPuraAo

#这么想念就久久放肆一下
#没别的

Saturday, 2 June 2018

Good Morning

好吧!往前走吧!
带着你在心里,走呗

https://youtu.be/_FqWLFt6ZUI

#我们都要好好
#好好地

Missed calls

Linda,
I miss you, truly.
Though I missed you calls.
And you know why.
I will miss you afar, forever.
I wish I would still get your missed calls, as long as...
We are missing each other
though we are missing literally!

#theonlynumberineversaved
#theonlynunberineverforget

I am vulnerable tonight. Have to admit that you still own me but you never belong to me.
What you did to me?
What I did to myself?

Oh gosh! Why would this happen to me?
The one who saved me from drowning is giving me a tsunami.
How to kick you off my mind, my heart, my soul if my subconscious doesn't want to?
How to love again when I still see you in my dreams?
How to feel loved again when he's no you?

I miss the days when we could see ourselves in each other's eyes.
I hate todays when we still want to but we can't.
I, once, thought I could move on easily with any loss since I had learnt my lesson from the ugly history. You've proved me wrong. As my brain still rewinding our moments, my heart still racing to see your numbers appeared on my mobile, I still check on your moment updates every night before I go to bed, I still listen to the songs in our collection and you're still the one person I want to share my thoughts with. I think of telling you, what I had for lunch, the story I recently addicted to, Mei Ting's new bf, I miss Cassandra, I fell from stairs last month, my action Song team got 2nd-runner up in state level competition, etc. I am longing for your care, you might not interested in my meals but you have no choice, you gotta listen to my boring and long grandma stories just about lunch, or you might just shut me up by telling me your even more boring work stuffs, you might tease me for having too much reading time or you might discuss passionately with me, you might curious about the lucky man who got meiting, you understand I miss cassandra and might spare my attention from it, you might scold me for the fall and yet bring me to the loh sifu, you might celebrate my victory as you know how I work for it these few years, or you might ask me stop doing action songs as I achieved what I promised myself, you might or you might not. I wouldn't know. One thing I know for sure, for however you respond, that's the way I desperately demanding.

I start murmuring... Wondering if you could finish reading... You know your English level la...
Hahaha...

#dontstopcalling
#evenimissedit
#linda
#特地写英语
#又特地写Linda 开头
#让你想看都难
#我就是这样作
#有没有想念我给你翻译的日子
#Google 翻译不见得准
#不准拿给别人翻
#不是好雅兴写文
#是你不在没有想讲的人
#是你不在没人突然出现给惊喜带我约会
#是想要你知道我想你
#是想要告诉你遇见你是我最喜欢的遗憾
#如果有如果 #我们中学要同校 #我们中学就相遇 #我们那时就相爱 #我们会幸福 #我们会白头
#如果有如果 #下辈子不要迟到 #同样的我们 #不同的身份 #让故事好好发展 #给故事幸福结局
#就算没有如果 #任性的成全了我们的回忆 #足矣

https://youtu.be/wnwau8Yqu7A

Tuesday, 24 April 2018

Monday, 23 April 2018

Untitled

Shh.... 

在我从moments, IG 撤掉两百多个贴子后,我深刻发现
那时的我们,多嚣张。
明知不可为,偏要向世界宣告我们的甜腻。
那时的我,是多么变态的快乐着。
今天的我却连
发首歌也害怕被联想。
发张图也怕被当成一种暗示。
索性今天不上网。

戒毒后的某一天
你给我发了一首"默"
告诉我黄晓明很帅。
我回你那首"演员"
告诉你薛之谦很帅又会唱歌

其实我本来要要发的是"你还要我怎样"
那是戒毒期间我每天的单曲循环
#我还是没犹豫就随你到天堂
好像有人说过快乐的人听音乐,伤心的人听歌词
我想是吧
总之每一首歌都是你

你说我很潇洒
来者不拒 去者不留

我不
来者不拒,我们游刃有余, 只因平水相逢,何必上心
去者不留,真的吗
像你这样三不五时发错短信,打错电话的撩拨
我要不留你,我就不回了
你的骄傲不会让你一直做傻事的
所以,我也默许你打着蓝闺蜜的旗号
把你留了下来
远远关心着

我从来都不是不在乎,也没有看淡
我只是害怕依赖你以后就不能自在独立生活了
你是我不敢争取的快乐

我希望你幸福,却恐惧不能给你现在所拥有的
在你眼里的懂事都是装的
我不开口要你留,不要求你什么
甚至不过问任何你不主动说的事
是因为爱你胜过自己才压抑住的

你希望我幸福,却害怕我看明白你终究不会是我的
费尽心机,那么迫切的想补偿我又不让我走出你的迷宫
那是自私的你付注的相思

我们是彼此的毒
上过瘾了
也戒了
就别再碰了
毒瘾犯了,心会痛的

祝你幸福

#潘多拉盒子
#关上啦
#linda
#一直没有告诉你薛之谦和你很像
#一样爱演
#别醋了
#一闪一闪亮晶晶仍然是我听过最动人的情歌

Sunday, 22 April 2018

Monday, 16 April 2018

低气压

嘴硬的演员两名

说好的

不关你事

呢?!

潘多拉的记忆盒子一开,我。。。
好想快点到那天。。。
好怕那天。。。
更怕那天过后。。。


纠结矛盾

#四月

Thursday, 12 April 2018

Tuesday, 10 April 2018

11 hours ago

This morning, I woke up to "11 hours ago".
I know you just can't stay calm in April. 
I got your msg. 
I remember the annual dinner that we promised even if you don't remind. 

From
无人之境
To
我们

Why are we still doing this?

#每个人的故事里都有陈奕迅
#linda
#我们都不够勇敢
#所以我们必须各自幸福
#彼此安心