Tuesday, 23 October 2018

Full moon

People who are drawn together don't have the protection of the laws of gravity to keep them apart.
The consequences don't matter when we're drawn to one another.
All that matters is the power of that touch.
Skin to skin.
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But there are always consequences.
Eventually, the moon sets and the sun rises, and whatever happened in the magic of that moonlight, has to face the hard truth of the light of day.

Monday, 22 October 2018

Good night

https://youtu.be/fPgs3qq9CGs

断联21天

这个被你的语音信息叫起的早晨
心情矛盾

我从刚刚一直到现在都在尝试把"起身未啊"download 或save下来。一直一直试,你懂的我对电子功能真的不行😂。

我没有成功。所以这次我没有清洗你的聊天记录。以前很多很多肉肉麻麻,甜甜蜜蜜,流流氓氓,搞搞笑笑的信息,都没有想过存下来。今天怎么了。就一个普通的早安信息让我心乱了。也许失去了才知道珍贵吧。

真的被你说中了,如果你要找我,一定能找到。
找到了,又能怎样呢?

你还没send来,我就听了。也想起你😍
https://youtu.be/_rCombIOGtc
其实我从开始就知道没有结局,就是打算陪你疯一回的。
时光倒退,我还会疯这一回。
那种融在血液里的心动冲动激动,人生没白活。
只是,真的够了。
#隐隐阴阴的痛也是会死人的
#还不可以做你的普通朋友
感恩爱你爱我

Thursday, 18 October 2018

Tuesday, 16 October 2018

I am no victim. #somethingreturned

My friend just returned me the old book. When you want to escape from sth, the universe never cease to remind you of it. That's how I feel now.

The first read, I was so angry with Rachel. How could she? How dare she? I played victim as I tasted the bitter of betrayal.

The second read, I felt so touched for Dex and Rachel. I was touched by their courage and their happy ending. I wish every love could be cherished as I tasted the bitter-sweet of a scandal. Love should only be love, nothing more or less. To love and be loved is the only bonding instead of responsibility. However, we are no Dex and Rachel.

Life surprised me with your love. I thought things should be right or wrong, black or white. You're the all tones of grey. And, I'm no white, at least not as white as I thought I was.

I remembered when I first said NO, and you overruled the decision in hours. I struggled in our chemistry. I remembered I even texted my ex after our first fight just to ask him if any possibility you would leave her for me. How silly! I know! I just need some courage to carry on. I need some success cases to keep me believe there is true love in affair and Dex and Rachel is not novelty.

After our N-times break up, I finally decided to try someone else... Keep keep keep trying...

And I kept kept kept running back to you. The forces were so strong that I couldn't help myself. That's why I stop befriend you. Darling, I would never get over you when you're always there for me. And I can't do that anymore, the mistress. I fed up with all the nights where my boyfriend was only on the mobile. I had enough of happy moments or pictures where you're only behind the scene. I'm not sorry for wanting more and loving myself.

I'm sorry for loving you.

I watched Scandal again when I miss you.
FYI, all the scandals are similar.

https://youtu.be/KQwwiIZ-w1I

https://youtu.be/iJ3UBneiB9I

https://youtu.be/EtUNXaiLkDw

#stillnotoveryou  #butsoon #goingtobuynewphonenextmonthformybirthday #throwingawaythephoneyouboughtformybirthday
#cleancutthistime
#Iamdetermined
#thememorieslasting

Sunday, 14 October 2018

我的你


That's the best. I know. I really feel it.


How if...


How if he's taken and unavailable?

Friday, 12 October 2018

笑一笑

泻肚子的厨师 vs 半价的肉饼

Saturday, 6 October 2018

10.06

https://youtu.be/XwpgYOiJ06Y

No more FB memories

#每首歌代表一个我们秘密的小确幸
#好像把我们的故事再走一遭
#明天不看memories了
#你呢

Friday, 5 October 2018

10.05


https://youtu.be/dVruLwaFvrQ

FB memories, heaven or hell


谁发明的FB memories













#每一天是情人节
#每一天是纪念日
 #太狂
#现在每一天看memories
 #太😩

Thursday, 4 October 2018

断联第四天

别垄断 我想你的夜晚
别揭穿 我包裹的不堪
别交代 我爱你的病态
多草率 除了你都不爱

https://youtu.be/BPu_qqgw7PM

Wednesday, 3 October 2018

Awake jor

https://youtu.be/WifuIg4PhHw

Skip pilates today

Stay back at school die die want to vomit out the paper. Finally I gao dim my exam paper. All set.

Heard video call ringing just now, of course it wasn't you. No problem. I'm so fine. The YouTube playlist just filled Up the void you left.

Bad headache day. Guess my period coming tonight or tomorrow.

I sleep now.

https://youtu.be/t3jr2z-IJOI

Tuesday, 2 October 2018

Mon cheri

Too short yet too long
Too shallow yet too deep
Too wrong yet too right
Too dirty yet too clean
Too ugly yet too beautiful
Too dark yet too bright
Too fake yet too sincere
Too little yet too much
Too hurt yet too love

https://youtu.be/fQWhenQgXo8

Gone too soon yet last forever

#ihaventsetmyexampaper
#ijustdontwanttomove
#lyingheremissingyou
#ddd
#yourverylousypasswordoftexting
#darlingdarlingdarling
#yourverysimpleyetcomplicatedhead
#isyourcharm


双曲循环

https://youtu.be/URZLGMVjYo8

https://youtu.be/39ci0jsMxHA


Monday, 1 October 2018

Hello October!

To-do list
- set exam paper for October (am sorry for the delay)
- find the winter clothes for my sister
- clean my room (wipe off the love traces) 
- visit Pui Zhee in KL

Too many things to do, so limited time. Gonna burn the mid night oil jor. 

💪💪💪
Gonna complete all, no excuses, keep going! 

P. S. : The best way to lose weight is "sat luin" :p

#nobluffyou

#idonth

#ieatandsleepasusual





Before Sep 2014 || 48kg
2015 || 50kg (my target) 😉
2016 || 52kg
2017 || 54kg (his target) 🙄
Before Sep 2018 || 54kg 😩
2018.10.01 || 51.4kg 
Losing the weight of the sugar.

#youdontlosetheweightiputontoyou
#iwillgetmadofthat
#78 #nolessthanthat😇
#doublestandards #sowhat